bullshit..

my mum finally saw my cuts.. after SO many days ==''' see.. this is why i said no one care for me

my dad will never find out.... he never even look at me when he was home..

lucky that he is not my BF.. if not..

i'll truly cut every part of my body to get his attention =='''

haixx... i was like.. nothing to do .. until YeQian cheered me up with DBSK's badges..

it's selling in her school.. RM4 each.. am buying 2.. so total RM8.. OMG!! i waste so much money ==''' i warned her to confirm that the badge she buy must be DBSK.. if not.. i will never pay her xD~

hmm.. then my mum cheered me up too..

she actually said that she will buy a jacket.. it was a couple jacket.. so i asked my mum whether i can buy it or not.. then she ask me.. who is going to buy the MALE's??? so i post it around on facebook.. and JOEL said he is going to buy it .. so i inform my mum.. and she said huh? you seriously buying a? don wan la ==''' WTF!

haixxx...

but at least i got my BSx9 blouse... and also my AKTF wristband.. i just can't wait to get the both of those xD~

hmm.. then nothing much happened for yesterday... dad came back with NO suprise =='''

owh yeah.. did i mention that my phone actually died?

is not a joke this time.. it REST in PEACE!!

new battery won't help anymore i guess.. but my dad was like.. so? it has nothing to do with me

so thats all for last night

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today.. when i was in school... i went to HIS class... it was like the 1st time i ever been there this few weeks... my heart beats so damn freaking fast .. i have no idea.. but only i realize that i seriously fall for him..

all my friends asked whats with the cut?

i have no idea how to answer..

it for DBSK?

my phone??

no.. its not..

its actually for you...

i have no idea...

how it was related to you...

but the only thing i know is i fall for you ...

and now.. i got no phone.. i can't contact you ==''

haixx.....

i just view that idiot TIC TAC TOE video...

and it was a freaking scary video.. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!

I hate you ALEX LEE..

my hand was shaking so hardly when i was typing this.....

i still got loads of video to upload ...

but its in my com.. *am using my kuku's com now*

orals is coming so soon.. gonna prepare now...

peace~

SERIOUSLY!!!!!!! I HATE YOU ALEX LEE!!!!!!!!

if only i now your full name ==''''

feelin much better...

wow.. i'm sick ..

kinda happy with it...

i can't walk straight..

the dizziness never go off..

just now in school.. when i was walking.. am dizzy..

then my friend hold my hands..

i was feeling so awkward..

so i ask... oi.. what are you doing?

then she said.. you are walking unstably..

huh??? since when?

since just now...

got mie?

i feel like i step on the stairs.. but actually i don't.. so i fall...

i was like...

i don't feel my legs at all =='''

but am feeling much better now xD~

thank god~

better rest early xD~

BYE!

no idea ...

If I were a princess..

I would choose to live in the kingdom of DBSK.

Because there will be 5 gorgeous prince to go crazy over me..

I'm so tired of being crazy over them...

should i rest?

I'm exhausted...

of waiting...

But if it wasn't you who cheer me up...

I may stuck in that scary desert forever..

I need you here with me right here.. right now...

desperately wanting for you...

After living like this for a long time...

I realize that I can only make myself feel better by hurting myself...

Your dream doesn't really work anymore...

The cuts makes me feel much safer...

I can't control anymore...

Whenever I'm down..

The only thing I'll find for is my RED scissors in my RED pencil case and cut my arm for RED blood...

-alwayskeepthefaith-

-thecrazyrubyred-

perfect guy from korea/japan

hmmm.. i realize that my pic editing skilll is improving..

YAY!!

Later...

pheww...

woke up damn early today..

while on online... i got my MP3 plug into my ears and trying to memorize all the lyrics~

i really really hope that you were here to guide me~ but never will..

anyway.. may god bless all of the worship team members today~

give us strength and might to praise and worship you like a real true pure youth.. but not a bunch of elder...

lord.. i committed today to you... may you bless it and enjoy it ...

in jesus name i pray AMEN~

YAY!!

i want this shirt xD~

who got? i want~

art work xD~ geng

cute!!!

YAY!! mum is gonna transfer money over~

random~

pheww..

back home after worship+pizza..

first time in worship team

hope that everything will go real smooth tomorrow~

hows the pic?

my latest artwork..

time taken:today

location:my room

taken by:ME!! xD~