i tried so hard to be good.. look good.. sound normal in front of my friends~
but after recess...
i can't stand it anymore..
my heart hurts till death!!!!!!!!!
i really can't breathe!!
for that moment... i thought i would die of suffocated...
i wish i could cry out loud..
but i have to look good in front of my friends..
i hold back everything...
and put on a fake smile till i reach home...
i got no energy at all..
i go to bed STRAIGHT!!
without lunch and bath...
when i woke up.. i don't feel hungry at all..
but i force myself to eat..
am hurt.. but i don't wanna starve till died because of him!!
i had bath right after my meal..
i felt much better...
after a cold water bath.....
i really don;t know how to communicate with him ad~
